Yeah, it is another time I realized that I am not little J anymore
I am a student in university and I am 18 years old
It is a sign that I have to care and look after myself
I miss the time I was at home
Mum and dad looked after me and cared of me
I know that they still looking after me and love me, but it is not the same anymore
I am not beside them and we can only speak via Skype or phone
My mum didn't shout at me since I came here
I know it is weird to say that but I kinda miss that
Everybody is going back home during Easter but I have to stay alone
This makes me feel homesick
If I were at home, my dad would bring me out and ask me to take a rest
If I were at home, my mum would make me some favourite foods
If I were at home, I could make a big mess on the floor with loads of books
If I were at home, my mum would shout at me and ask me to keep the dining room neat and tidy
If I were at home, I could chat and make jokes with my dad
Sometimes I feel I shouldn't make the choice to study in the UK
Although I knew if I had another chance to choose, I would make the same decision
I miss the time I was in Cambridge
The house warden looked after me and the friends that used to stay beside me
And I had a roommate which made me felt I had someone here
At Carlisle, the university
I have forced myself to do some revision everyday
and I couldn't believe that I have started my revision a month before the exams
This is not J, because she always do things in last minute
Although a month before is not too early but at least it is not last last minute
I should really be proud of meself
Of course, there are some reasons for me to keep going
I would feel really bad and sad if I need to take the re assessment in summer
That means I would have only two months to stay at home
I might loss the chance to go Taiwan with my family
And it would cost more for the air tickets
To be honest, this gives me more effort to keep going
There is only a thing is important for me, for NOW
TIME to spend with my family
I love you mum and dad, and my favourite sister:))))
