Once again

Yupp I have completely forgotten about this blog. I guess it is because I rather finding someone to talk about my feeling, but not typing in this blog anymore.  It's great when I looked back all the previous messages/essays that I wrote for myself.  They remind me all the memories in my life and the things that happened for a reason! And now, it comes to the end of 2015, and I am still a jobless 21 years old new graduate!  It has been 3 months since I have graduated and came back to home. Right, dear future me, when you look back to this blog and find this ending is weird,  don't worry! I am now telling you that I am too tired and I really should go to bed now! I will continue writing down the things that needed to be remembered. So, good night and see you soon:)

Blame yin

Sister has gone home! That is why I get homesick. She is leaving me alone in England:(

Mr Right or Mr Left?

Dont know if he is the Mr Right or Mr Left yet!
He is the most gentleman Mr I have met so far:)) xx

Since 2011

THREE years ago this time I was excited to leave school for studying in abroad; TWO years ago this time I was excited to get into university to be a physio student; LAST year this time I wish time could be stopped and I could stop growing up; NOW, I wish I could be a student forever and be the baby girl forever! It is excited to think about NEXT year this time, but I don't feel I am ready to get into the real world:(

Started to get emotional even the academic year hasn't started yet!

I know I will be emotional this time when I need to leave.
One more year to go!! Long? Yes, but time flights!!
Dont think about it now, just enjoy my time of living with them and my uni life!!
Love you girls!!

大二结束了

来英国有三年了吧！
很多事情，心镜都改变了吧
当然还是有一些东西
永远都不会变的

刚刚从伦敦回来
住在表哥家有一阵子吧
一个才几个月大的小宝宝
和一个三岁都不到的Henry仔
突然有点感慨
自己也长大了
看着他们就像看着曾经的自己

很快的
自己也要踏出社会了
很多东西 不再是‘童言无忌’
而是变成了大人世界里的‘理所当然’
当然还少不了 一些虚伪的礼貌和应酬

大家坐在一起的话题
也不再是儿童世界里的单纯和天真
而是政治性 工作性 等的话题
犯错不再是理所当然 或是可以被理解及包容的
踏出每一步 都要想想前因后果

这个就是社会吧

好好把握剩下的学生生活吧
也要开始磨练及准备好进入社会的脚步
生活 也快要开始了吧！

Curious? Maybe!

This is just a short sentence that I really want to say: 

I want to know what is his name!

长大了吗?

想想,自己在国外也快3年了
别人说,离过家的孩子特别独立
可是,是真的吗?
可能曾经这么认为吧, 1年前或两年前吧
现在的我
上大学,在医院实习
都是正常的生活成长经历

可是我发现,有很多不适应的
不适应也很正常, 把不适应的变成适应的
那就长大了吧!
在这个过程里,我变得更加的依赖
依赖家里人
虽然他们什么都帮不了
可是我还是很需要他们
真的不想长大 可以吗?
我想要只当爸爸妈妈的那个小宝贝
不长大 可以吗?

妈咪几天前说: 你知道老刻师父说你什么吗?
我说: 不知道
她又说: 他说你很想回家

说真的 当时我还不觉得什么 就听听好了
可是现在 他又说对了一次

我真么那么的不坚强吗
不想让人担心
可是真的真的 我不想自己面对这些
如果爸爸妈妈在就好
好想家 想回家

2013的愿望

又是一年拉

很久没有上来了

最后一次是5月吧！

没有特别的新鲜事自然就少写了

总结我的2013吧

照常大学的生活，同样的人事物

变的不一样的心境 想法 

融入了应该融入的世界

可是少了那份真诚

习惯了应该习惯的生活

可是想家的次数越来越多

面对的人 真的是出到社会会遇到的人吗

还是更加势力 自私 造谣

有人跟我说过

中学后很难遇到真心的朋友

潜意识中 我好像赞同了

表面微笑着 究竟带了多少伤人的利器 质疑

又带了多少份的真诚

人吧

是今年最大的疑问 感悟 感慨 也有欣慰

变的喜欢跟老人家说话

他们的认真聆听 分享

觉得比较窝心

是自己的心态变了吗

曾经觉得唠叨的话语 现在却觉得特别实在

曾经觉得好听的鼓励 现在却觉得无比讽刺

面对学业的心态也变的有点不一样

以前经常想 究竟几时会看到考试的尽头

考了这次 还有下次 考了今年 还有明年

现在 好像看到 尾端了

考试前变的更认真的准备

结果却不是预期般

从觉得心里不平衡 愤怒 想放弃 适应 再开始努力

用着第二语言

生活 交谈 考试

没有想像中那么简单 却也不难

有朋友的比较 也有鼓励

2013就只有3个考试

考试前的努力 紧张 

考试后的崩溃 放松

不一样的情绪 似乎比我12年中小学的情绪起伏更大

家人的陪伴 分享

也让我学会用更好的心态面对

‘皇上不急 太监急’

想念以前考试前老师父母的着急

想念以前有人催功课 被责骂

到了大学 没人理会而变的更自律

没人督促准备考试 交作业

没有惩罚 自己还是很自然有压力的完成该完成的事情

生活上

自己生活变的不是特别健康

不管是生活方式 饮食 还是作息

家里有正常营养的3餐

时间到了有人让你早点睡觉

这些就是成人的世界吗

我有个2013的愿望 就是因为不可能实现 所以是个2013而不是2014

不想长大 

感触

最近很忙很忙
很忙实习，很忙上班，也很忙看戏

‘我可能不会爱上你’

很多东西，不想讲的太明白
说穿了..没意思了
看着这部戏..好像看到了自己
相同的角色..不过是不一样的剧情

我没有女主角那样的坚强
至少..我是依赖家里的
她扛着那个家...而我选择让这个家保护我

相同的性格，典型的狮子座
光鲜亮丽的外表下..有再多的称赞赞赏
真正一句话不说都能明白的朋友..又有谁

我们最大的差别
你只是曾经，也只会是曾经
她的友情..是交往了也不会改变的

她的或许不是纯友谊
我却相信纯友谊，而你也不相信

我羡慕她...懂她的那个一直懂她
懂我的那个..是个曾经

整个故事，感触我的不是最后爱情的结局
而是那段友情
把这个故事爱情的部分删掉..再做点修改
那会是我们的故事

没错..我也应该学会当配角
可是..这就是我

我就是自私吧
现在的我..不想找我故事的主角..我想找一个配角
有时候..   好朋友    真的是一个奢望

Physio Placement-Outpatient

Yes, I have a really nice placement in a community hospital!
It is a brilliant working place and I've done for 4 weeks.
Still have another week to go!
I really want to say love my team and educator
I appreciate that I've got this placement and I've learnt a lot from them

During this placement, I found that this is want I really want to do
Can't tell how amazing it has been through

I will remember our lovely time that we've spend together!
Great tea time, lunch time, retirement party!
Yeah, it was 4 generation of team lead in that party
although I don't know anybody there but I was appreciated and happy
It is a new beginning for the lovely retired lady
However, it is a new journey for me

Suddenly I thought, Well, this is life...What an amazing life for us
I really enjoyed what I'm doing and I never forget to share everything with my family
Hundred, thousand, million thank you for my family
Thanks for their love, support and be with me

In this placement, I feel I want to learn more! I want to do more!
There is no an ending since I've made this choice
Just keep going and enjoy the view:)

I love my world, and everybody who has been with me <3 p="">

Preparing for exam

Yeah, it is another time I realized that I am not little J anymore

I am a student in university and I am 18 years old

It is a sign that I have to care and look after myself

 

I miss the time I was at home

Mum and dad looked after me and cared of me

I know that they still looking after me and love me, but it is not the same anymore

I am not beside them and we can only speak via Skype or phone

My mum didn't shout at me since I came here

I know it is weird to say that but I kinda miss that

 

Everybody is going back home during Easter but I have to stay alone

This makes me feel homesick

If I were at home, my dad would bring me out and ask me to take a rest

If I were at home, my mum would make me some favourite foods

If I were at home, I could make a big mess on the floor with loads of books

If I were at home, my mum would shout at me and ask me to keep the dining room neat and tidy

If I were at home, I could chat and make jokes with my dad

 

Sometimes I feel I shouldn't make the choice to study in the UK

Although I knew if I had another chance to choose, I would make the same decision

 

I miss the time I was in Cambridge

The house warden looked after me and the friends that used to stay beside me

And I had a roommate which made me felt I had someone here

 

At Carlisle, the university

I have forced myself to do some revision everyday

and I couldn't believe that I have started my revision a month before the exams

This is not J, because she always do things in last minute

Although a month before is not too early but at least it is not last last minute

I should really be proud of meself

 

Of course, there are some reasons for me to keep going

I would feel really bad and sad if I need to take the re assessment in summer

That means I would have only two months to stay at home

I might loss the chance to go Taiwan with my family

And it would cost more for the air tickets

 

To be honest, this gives me more effort to keep going

There is only a thing is important for me, for NOW

TIME to spend with my family

 

I love you mum and dad, and my favourite sister:))))

Chicken and cake

Last night was watching horrow movie with Fi and Becca until 3.00 am!!

And woke up at 1.00pm this 'morning':)

I went to Sainbury with Maram for 20-30 mins walk!!

I've spend 40++ on groccery and have bought a whole chicken

It is the first time I roasted the chicken in my life,ha!

 

1. Wash and clean the chicken

2. Put the butter on the tray and the chicken

3. Cut the lemon and put it in the chicken 'stomoch',(from the hole.XD)

4.Add some salt, black pepper, chicken herb and spice

 

5. Put the chicken into oven with 180'C for 1 hour

 

6. nomnom!! Chicken is ready to eat!

 

I have helped Maram to bake a cake as well! Pigs are in the chocolate bath!not mud!!!!:)

Kit Kat Chocolate cake:)

Lack of Kit Kat=.=

Today is a happy and meaningful day:)

Have a great conversation with a friend too!!

 

 

Tiring Monday

Is Monday again!

It is a tiring day for me:(

We are learning trunk for this semester and have gone through the Lumbar part last week!

 

Is not the first time I did last minute work:(

Just started my revision for 2 hours before went to the tutorial!

Every morning I tell myself go to bed early and do not stay late

But I always fail!!

Couldn't get any message during lecture and not even understand what my lecturer was talking about

Tiring day:((

Have to go to work in 20 mins until late night

Alright, work until 10pm is really late for me!haha

I wish I was at home, and just stay with my family:)

Love them and miss them so much:))

Home sweet home

Always the place to fully charge myself, and prepare for the next day:) 

I love my room sooo much !!

Lovely bedding makes my week!!:)

 

 

 

I've tidied up my room as well!! My room is neat and tidy now:))

Stroke Club

I have been volunteering in the Stroke Club since 5th Feb 2013.
I've enjoyed it more then I though!
It is a lovely place for me to meet new people
Although most of them are quite elderly but I found it is easier to communicate with them
I take care and look after them as my grandparent!
I hope my grandparent are well too!

The first time I played BINGO, and the first time I had Pie and Peas!
It was a lovely night. I'm happy too when I saw they were happy and enjoyed!
What I can say is ' they are lovely and amazing people'

last day of my observation placement

Last day of my observation placement
Happy??
yeah!!Finally I don't need to wake up so early
Sad??
yeah!!I just get used to it and know people but leaving soon

I was so nervous and excited in the early morning because
My educator said I could have chance to observe the surgery of knee replacement
I though I would get so sick and expected to leave during the operation but I didn't
In the real surgery room with professional surgeon,nurses and patient

Just cant forget this day in my life:))

I know, I LOVE physiooooo soooooooooooooooo much!!

First day on uniform

First day on uniform
STUDENT PHYSIOTHERAPIST

Was my first observation placement
I though I would be in outpatien but I wasn't
I was in inpatient before lunch and outpatient lunch
Luckily, one of the second year student was on placement with me
We were in the same department and had the same educator
I was glad to have them who gave me lots of help

New journey has begun:)

无形的压力

来到这边快2个月了吧
完全完全没有华人，华文的地方
说习惯..
也不完全
说不习惯呢
也没那么夸张

偶尔还是会觉得
无形的压力围绕着我
文化和语言算是一门非常大的挑战吧
特别长久的挑战

常常不知怎么接话
很多想说想分享的
在脑子里先翻译
再来是因为没什么自信
最后也没说

偶尔好想逃到自己原本的世界
熟悉的语言
畅谈无阻
百分之百的清楚明白别人在说什么
说说是非八卦
并不是只是客套或问候

会习惯吧
内心有点的不安
自己能克服吧
不只是沟通包括学业
想尽自己最大的努力
可是偶尔会有小小的彷徨，无助
想要回到最原本的世界
索取一点温暖和自信

原来这个就是朋友

3年了吧
小心翼翼的保护着朋友的那块区域
为了她，我哭了1个多月
现在
为了他，我算是又看清楚了
原来这个就是朋友

不轻易让朋友越过那个区域
一年的时间，让我认识你
半年的时间，让我知道 你会是那个重要的朋友
半年的时间，你是唯一的那个朋友
朋友可以很多
唯一的那个 真心的那个 能刺伤我的那个
我还以为会是常常久久的
原来为期不过是另外一个半年

曾经的那个鼓励 陪伴 分享
原来都不是因为我是你的朋友
你让我怀疑了这一点
真的是这样吗？

这次 我不会为任何人哭了
不划算的眼泪和伤心 何必浪费呢

对啊
你也不是我的谁 不过是朋友
到处都可以找到的朋友
一天也是朋友 一年也是朋友 十年也是朋友
没有必要的认真

这个失望 收不回来了
那句话 收不回来了
就这样吧
最后一次的称呼 朋友